Sometimes the struggles of life take us down unusual roads, unfamiliar
turns,
and life changing situations.
If the enemy (Satan) could program our minds for us to stay in the
wilderness or
darkness, and not enjoy God's marvelous light, he (Satan) would. The
thief came
but only to steal, to kill, and to destroy, but I (Jesus) have come so
that you
may have life more abundantly. John 10:10
At the age of eight, I was molested by my uncle's father-in-law. I kept this dark secret for over 30 years. As a child, I believed everything this adult told me. He programmed me to believe that he loved me and this was a normal act, but no matter what, it could only be our secret. The affect it (my molestation) had on my mind and life nearly led to my death.
For a child to carry this burden alone can trigger so many different
things:
you may become rebellious against your parents, because you feel as if
they should
have been there to protect you; your grades may drop in school; some
may turn to
drugs, while others develop an *I don't care attitude.* That was
me. I missed
out on being a kid and instantly (in my mind) became a young lady.
It (my molestation) hindered a lot of things in my life; it played a
big part in
me raising my children, my marriage and subsequent divorce, and now my
walk with the
Lord. Because of God's Grace and Mercy I am able to stand firmly and
boldly
against my enemy. In God's word He said, "I (God) will never leave you
(Chiquita) nor forsake you (Chiquita).
I am now able to speak freely about the things that happened to me in
my past. I
was blessed to write and sing *I'm Not Afraid to Talk About it.*
This song tells
the story of what I went through during that time. We have to trust in
God and
lean not to our own understanding and in all ways acknowledge Him, and
He shall
direct our paths. (Proverbs 3:4-5)